Draw With Me

I have a video that makes me really depressed. It was made by these people on Youtube and it called Draw With Me. It's how I feel sometimes. Not literally... but emotionally. It made me cry. What do you think?

The name of the song is Cherish. If you really want it, I have it on my iTunes. Just go to AIM and look for KaibaGirlMaliko (That's me) and ask for Cherish. I will just transfer it to you. I am usually always on, so write anytime. I need someone to talk to anyway. ^_^

On the Inside

Today, I stayed up for hours and talked to Inu. He was sad, but didn't say it. I could sense it so easily. It was like spending the day with Nero all over again. He didn't admit it at first, but did express enough shock at my knowledge to let on that I was right. Turns out that he is more like Nero than I thought. He feels the same way... about how if someone needed help, he would help them, even if it meant wasting energy he didnt have. He felt guilty asking anyone for help himself, though...So he always kept it inside. I told him what I always tell Nero. If you don't have the energy to help someone, just tell them. If they were your true friend, they would understand. Dont be afraid to ask for help. Your friends care just as much as you do and want to help you. That's what friends are for, right? But... Unlike Nero... He listened. He thanked me for my help and we laughed and chatted a little more, then hung up to go to sleep. I think I really helped someone for the first time today. Yay!!!
No one really understands that all I ever wanted to do was feel wanted. I live to help people. I love the feeling. Not for the thanks and the hugs... but for the smile on their face. That's all I want. I hope I help more people soon. It feels so good.

My new friend

I met a new friend on AIM. His name is Richard. Everyone calls him Richie, but I call him Inu-chan. He’s almost exactly like me, except a boy. I walked from Brownsville to Canarsie High School and another 40 blocks to his house with a bike that is too small for me (I didn’t know!!!), his scooter, and my book bag with my Wii, DSi, games and Luki in it. I slept over at his house. We stayed up all night playing Wario Ware: Smooth Moves and Wario Ware: Mega Party Games. He had no problem beating Smooth Moves (except with the exception of a few epic fails), but he could not beat Mega Party Games for Jelly Beans. It was funny watching him try, though. He actually beat me a few times in Paper Planes. T_T I am supposed to be the Queen of Paper Planes. What the frick?! His room in his basement has no windows, so I ended up waking up at 2. Walking all that way, I got home around 4. I had no music or anything to keep me company on the way home since he was only allowed to walk me halfway, all the way to Canarsie High School. The way back, I had my thick jacket, my bag, the bike and I was on my own. It was heavy, too small to ride and I got a backache just thinking about it. But, Mom had cleaned up my room a little for me, so when I got home I felt better. I hope to see him again soon…

Double Tap or Die!

I went with Niv and Yugi to see ZombieLand last monday and I have learned something from the experience.
01. Cardio
02. Double tap
03. Beware of bathrooms
04. Seat belts
07. Travel light
17. (Don’t) Be a hero
18. Limber up
22. When in doubt, know your way out
31. Check the back seat
32. Enjoy the little things