On the Inside

Today, I stayed up for hours and talked to Inu. He was sad, but didn't say it. I could sense it so easily. It was like spending the day with Nero all over again. He didn't admit it at first, but did express enough shock at my knowledge to let on that I was right. Turns out that he is more like Nero than I thought. He feels the same way... about how if someone needed help, he would help them, even if it meant wasting energy he didnt have. He felt guilty asking anyone for help himself, though...So he always kept it inside. I told him what I always tell Nero. If you don't have the energy to help someone, just tell them. If they were your true friend, they would understand. Dont be afraid to ask for help. Your friends care just as much as you do and want to help you. That's what friends are for, right? But... Unlike Nero... He listened. He thanked me for my help and we laughed and chatted a little more, then hung up to go to sleep. I think I really helped someone for the first time today. Yay!!!
No one really understands that all I ever wanted to do was feel wanted. I live to help people. I love the feeling. Not for the thanks and the hugs... but for the smile on their face. That's all I want. I hope I help more people soon. It feels so good.